she was so strung out, she'd swear it never occurred

OLIVIA WILDE~

Does anybody remember when this chick was on The O.C.? I swear to God, she's responsible for turning me. I. LOVE. THIS. CHICK. She looks like a babe in every thing I've ever seen her in, and she kicks ass whenever I happen to watch House.

Bottom line: Olivia Wilde is the shit.

SCARLETT JOHANSSON~
If any of you say that you have not thought about Scarlett Johansson sexually at least once, then you're a fucking liar. This bitch is so hot. Go see Iron Man 2. You won't regret it. Also, check out The Island, and The Spirit. She's equally foxy in all of those.

NAOMI WATTS~

My favorite actress. I've loved her as long as I can remember. And I have always thought that she is beautiful. Even in movies like King Kong and The Ring. She's perfect.

ALAINA BEATON~
I've had a creepy celebrity crush on this bitch since senior year when Chelsea made me listen to Porcelain and the Tramps. She's SMOKIN'. Aside from that, she's a badass, and I really dig listening to her voice. I don't know what it is, but something about this chick just does it for me.

KRISTEN STEWART~

I really don't know why everyone gives this chick so much shit. I really like her. Sure, her acting leaves a lot to be desired, but I don't think she deserves all the criticism she gets. I think that her nervous tics and awkward gestures are kind of endearing. I've always found her incredibly attractive (Twilight movies aside), and I look forward to seeing her in The Runaways.

ANYA MARINA~
She's so cute. I saw her performing randomly on some late night show one night and I've been hooked ever since. She has the most adorable appearance, and I love her voice. If you haven't listened to any of her music yet, I suggest you give her a try.

and now,

Alaina Beaton

Turtles(:

Sacred Origins of Profound Things

Dream Catchers

The Runaways/Dakota Fanning/Kristen Stewart

Alaina Beaton:: biggest celebrity crush of all time.

Turtles:: latest obsession. I want one so bad(:

Sacred Origins of Profound Things:: a bit of light reading for the summer.

Dream Catchers:: I've recently given away all but one of my dream catchers. I want to get the one I've got left tattooed on my arm. I've had it since I was like, six. (:

The Runaways/Dakota Fanning/Kristen Stewart::

a) So stoked for this movie. SO stoked.

b) Dakota Fanning's a babe

c) Kristen Stewart's a babe.

...that is all (:

i'll take the truth at any cost.

Paramore/Hayley Williams~

Well, I went to Paramore show the other day; it was great. Hayley Williams is a babe, first of all. And although I know that was to be expected, it still blew me away. I think I said the words "oh my god, she's so hot" about a thousand times. I just couldn't help myself. Every once in awhile I wasn't able to see her because I'm short as shit, but I could see little whisps of orange hair flying around and I'd be like:

Dude. She's right there, I see her hair!

Oh Hayley, the things I would do to you...

Anyway: their sound was a lot different than I'd expected. I was expecting to hear that pop punk generic sound that is audible in Riot, but live, they sound a lot more raw. A lot more real.

I was plesantly surprised. (:

Don't get me wrong; I've always liked Paramore. And although Riot is an enjoyable album, I consider it a huge step down from All We Know Is Falling. It just became this overplayed pop bubblegum soundtrack that I regarded with excitement, but still just a bit of indifference.

Paramore has been bumped up a few knotches on my list as of now.

well, i've read some books and i've grown quite brave

I am eighteen years old, and I am still a child. Life has bruised and battered me quite a bit, I have somehow sprouted a personality completely parallel to what would be expected of me; the circumstances in which I was raised should have turned me into a trembling introvert rocking incessantly back and forth inside of a padded room. No, I’ve molded my own mind. I’ve created my own life. I thrive in dysfunctional situations. I do not like to live in a clean space; I need chaos to function. I do not clean my room until I have to move things around with my feet in order to get to my bed. I drink coffee to cure headaches, and smoke cigarettes to cure a bad cough. I’m colorblind. Light hurts my eyes. I look at things in a way that causes me great discomfort; analyzing every detail of my surroundings until my inner monologue breaches the confines of my mind and nonsense words start to escape my mouth. I do not trust people who wear very dark clothing, because subconsciously, I believe that they are from the future and they know something detrimental but they just aren’t spitting it out. I cannot focus on one task for longer than five minutes before my mind starts to wander. Every day I give someone a compliment, because I think that everyone is fighting some kind of battle in their lives and maybe telling them that their hair is pretty or that I like their shoes might make them feel a little bit better, at least for a moment. I am very socially inept; when I am in a group of more than five people I become convinced that one of them hates me and is thinking terrible things about me. I cannot hold eye contact for very long; it makes me feel vulnerable. I do not know how to handle arguments simply because I think that they are ridiculous, and feeling angry makes my stomach hurt. I get caught up in irrelevant things; I stare, I analyze, I people watch. I hear dull music in my head when I daydream; usually it is the Beatles for some reason. I sleep too much during the day, and time has almost no meaning to me now. I never know what day it is, and I never schedule or plan anything. I remain oblivious to very important obligations and responsibilities. I start projects and never finish them. I am not put together. I do not have myself figured out. I know the basics and I roll with that. I am learning every day. I am crazy. And I do not mean a cute/humorous/endearing kind of crazy. I mean that I am actually, insane. My mind does not work the way that it should; my thoughts are all over the place. When I start to lose my mind I have been known to do things such as eat toothpaste sandwiches, take on characteristics of people I read about in books, accidently break water pipes in my house, play dress up at ridiculous hours of the night/morning, create fires with my journals, stay awake for days researching a completely random/useless topic until I know everything there is to know about it. Okay, so maybe it is kind of humorous. But in no way endearing, or “cute.” My tics and tweaks and nervous habits my shaking hands my stuttering and fumbling and faltering; I am far from graceful. I am eighteen years old, and I am still a child. Sensitive eyes of an infant. Curiosity of a youngster. I am learning every day.

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little turtles~

BAWWW(: i want one so bad!

i hide behind these books i read

These are some of the best books I have read as of late~

The Fairy Tales of Hermann Hesse

Tender as Hellfire

Love is a Mix Tape

Siddhartha

It's Kind of a Funny Story

The Boy Who Couldn't Sleep and Never Had To

The Wild Things

Tweak

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Einstein's Dreams

A Wolf at the Table

currently,

WEARING FLOWERS IN MY HAIR

HERMANN HESSE

DIET SNAPPLE PEACH TEA

HARMONICA(:

BOB DYLAN

MANCHESTER ORCHESTRA~I CAN FEEL A HOT ONE

THE OFFICE